Being Left Behind. - ScrapbookDreamer.com: Scrapbook Layout Ideas, Cards, Scrapbook Rooms

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***Dream You’re a Scrap Star - Week 5***
***Scraplift Challenge***

Dream List:
My Design Team (scraplift)
Inking
Photo Corners.
Layers
Chipboard/Grungeboard

I scrap lifted Tammydee’s stunning layout Lola Smoochies: [ link ]

Products Used:
Budget Cardstock- White.
Basic Grey Granola- Vanilla Bean.
Basic Grey Granola- Flax.
Basic Grey Granola- Almond.
Basic Grey Granola- Element Stickers.
American Crafts Thickers- Jewelry Box Brown.
Carolee Creations Alphabet Stickers- Tiny Worn Navy.
Tim Grungeboard- Plain Mixed Minis.
VersaColor Ink- Pinecone and Sky Blue.
Dimensional Magic.
Staples.

Journalling reads:
From the age of 8, I have feared death. Not my death but being left behind after the passing of loved ones.

It started with the sudden passing of my papa, unable to say good-bye I thought if I didn’t let anybody in, allow anybody to be close to me the hurt wouldn’t be so bad if they passed away.

I never wanted to get married or have a family as I could lose them too, I thought by stepping back from people it wouldn’t hurt as bad when they passed away.

As I got older I realised that birth, life and death were a cycle of life and one that we can’t stop but the fear was still there.

The last 6 months has been very hard for our family. Losing Nanna Joyce on 12th April 2008, Pop Col on 13th September 2008 and Pop Robert on 24th October 2008 has really brought this fear up again.

It has made me question how I would cope if Peter and Lillee were taken from me early, it has made me think about how I’d deal with the passing of my parents and sister.

Dealing the deaths of Peter’s grandparents have been hard. I feel like I just started dealing with the grief of losing Nanna Joyce when the grief started again with Pop Col, then Pop Robert. In 6 short months we have lost 3 wonderfully, loved and kind grandparents and it feels like as much as I try to deal with this grief, with each passing it just brings up all the passings so I am grieving for 3 people not 1.

While losing a loved one is painful, over time the ache does get easier. I will always miss Papa, Nanna Joyce, Pop Col and Pop Robert but all I have to do is look at my beautiful daughter to see that life does go on and in my daughter is all 4 of these loved ones.

I hope they will always shine down from Heaven and see their great grand-daughter.

Font used: Typical Writer.